Its not any one fault for the place i am today

eventhough being who i am right now has made me very down and useless and apparently, disabled,

im not going blame anyone for it

its my destiny and im accepted it

i hate to admit it but im happy for once

but that happiness not fulfill just yet

it seems very empty to me

and i feel scared

not being to fill up that single hole to brim and forever full whenever

im afraid o what the future holds me

what it has in store for me

i wanna stand tall but being pull down by the negatives of everyone around me

i just wish it would stop right now and right here

it hurts so much

thats why i have to hold that burden alone

not him or her,not even you

i am responsible for what i am, never you

never will you be feeling how i am cause its never you who should hold the negatives

its just me

i just hope you understand that

i love you so ever much

i want to hold you in your arms and hold you so tight

but i gotta let you go

cause this isn't your blame

this is never your fault

its was never you

it was me

so this is why you must promised me

never to fall in love with me

please....