I feel so shitty of myself right now
everyone has someone to fall on but me
i was going to fall all the down to the bottomless pits
nobody ever gonna stand in front of a bullet for me
nobody gonna commit suicide for the sake of me
nobody
i feel so alone right now as if the world was ever empty
my insides very hollow
like a hole was punched through my heart
if there is ever anyone out there who can hear me out right now
i will gladly love them for who they are
crying in silents has been more and more painful each time around
im dying
seriously unconscious in the deep sea
somebody please help
please

today was satisfying at last!
went to meet up with shahliza,kwan and rabiah to tutor them in chemistry...
complete headache but had a lot of laughs and catching up with one another
soon after izzuan ask me out for a few drills at school
tried my new Adidas AdiCore for the first time and it was fabulous!
it was worth the huge bucks i guess
though it needs to be seasoned a little more
and i definitely need to work on my fitness and ball control
i guess i gonna work on it straight away i guess

hahhahas gogogogo!!!

the week has been great for me...sorta
everything went well at work
gonna get my paycheck soon enough after this sunday
and it seems i have become addicted to the twilight saga
to kick start i am gonna start reading new moon!
just bought the book on monday
cost me 16 bucks though due to its special offer
gonna get eclipse soon enough

talking about work, it seems that everyone wants to work at NTUC now
today Hafez,Faris,Faiz,Khairul Hazwan and Najib all found a job at NTUC Toa Payoh HDB hub
i don't know if its great news or what but i guess i won't be lonely no more
hhahshahhas
ouh well
and i finally bought the boots i wanted!
yeah!
haven't tried them on yet but i just can't wait for the debut of...
Adidas AdiCore TRX FG!!
hahhahas anxiously waiting
hmmm...

"The uncertainty is killing me!"

it kinda sucks being me
so unsure of myself
so full of endless sorrows
hopes into dust
im just want everything to be the back the way it is
so carefree and easy
but as i grew older the more i become...
less me and more of someone i don't know
for the first in my life im afraid of tomorrow
im afraid of myself
definite need of an angel
arghhh!!!!

well it ain't the greatest day today with O level results coming out
i mean my pimples has gone popping up
my face turned into Mars
didn't get results i wanted though and i just started my morning shift this weekend
damn it lah

heyheyhey guys
its me again
life isn't going so great with work and all
but did i mention the great time i had with Eurythemics at Downtown East for our chalet??
hhahhas

we all met up at Admiralty MRT around 12 noon and made our way there
when we arrived of course everyone settled down and we watch a bit of television
got bored and when to the bowling alley
i was good at first but damn was i bad
hahhhas superduper
ouh well first timer
berd of cause fell!
hhahhas!

den ard 930 we went swimming!!!!
yeah cool down a bit after our BBQ and to end our day perfectly...
we watched Paranormal Activity around 1 to 3
spine tinkling!
i can't sleep the whole nyte
but wen i did, izzuan squeezed some toothpaste on me
haiyaa!!!!

the next day was more jump packed!
went to Wild Wild Wet
damn shioked!
played on all kind of slides and boats and floats
especially Ular-lah
like going on to the ends of the earth!
don't get me started on the rest of the rides
but overall very fun and great with Eury around
late nyte movie we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 2
hahhahs cutey and adorable as always!

went home soon the next day
awww too bad!

Im kinda bored,really
my job ain't that great but yet its kinda fun
my life kinda sucks but yet its interesting
everything has gone haywire but yet it unravels something new
its crowded in the train all the time but yet enjoyed seeing the many faces
im worn out but yet not tired
i stink but yet its comfortable
im sad but yet joyful
im sick but yet hyper active
i love you but yet i don't miss you

Its kinda weird how things turn out to be opposites huh?

"Laughing my way through the dark..."

Heyheyhey!!
its that time of year again!
the start of something new!
2010!
hhahas!
it had been a great 2009 where i met new friends and its the year where i realize the true me
ouh well that year has already gone and now its time to start anew!
im glad that its the start of the 2010 because in six month time its the 2010 FIFA World Cup in South Africa!
yeah! rooting spain this time
but funny though, because i don't support countries no more! hahahhas! anyway this year im really aiming to be the best player i can be in Eurythemics
they have been my family and my teammates and they sorta grew on me...
the only way to repay them is by playing my best for them for every match ahhahas!

other then that im happy with i have now and thanked god for that
my height or my hair isn't going to be an issue again
i mean, i love my hair and height!
hahahas anyway started work at NTUC and its not bad really
my supervisor is quite nice and at least she bothers about me
hahahas ouh well!

its the countdown to the unraveling of the new Nike Tiempo Super Ligera!!!
can't wait!!!

"Heavy in Class, Light in Touch"

Match: Eurythemics Vs Omar's Selection
Final Score: 9-2
Match Ratings: 6.5

it was another great game for the number 21...he was well organised and also very comfortable on the ball. there were a few setbacks for the right full back as he was involve in conceding the two goals. But an overall a great game for the young full back

Personal opinion: an average game though for me. the opponents were great and had individual skills but lack teamwork. but i was satisfied with my performance today